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Inbox the First

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about
which part exactly

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that you love him

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right

yeah. i think i've known that for a while, and never really voiced it until after i lost nick

does it bother you

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i should mention that he only told me
because i asked him about you and him

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okay

how come you asked? last time we talked about it i didn't think you really wanted details

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were you going to tell me?

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just being like totally honest, i hadn't really thought there was something to tell

you knew we were sleeping together and i talked before about caring for him as more than a fuck buddy or something

it didn't really occur to me to announce that we'd said those words

but i wasn't planning to like deliberately keep it from you either

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alright
that's all i wanted to know

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will you tell me what you're thinking?

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just not surprised

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about?

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you and him

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well

okay a couple of things.

do you want to talk about me and him?

does me and him bother you?

separate questions, not related

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no and i don't care
i'm just not surprised

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you're a very difficult man to read

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thanks
anyways
that's all i wanted to know

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john?

there's been a lot of times lately when we've talked about a thing, and it seems like you care about that thing, and then you say you don't

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because i don't
i've always told you to do what you want
everyone does

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i know, and i appreciate that, but that doesn't mean that you can't have feelings about it

i'm worried about you

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well you don't need to be
glad you've realized he's not so bad

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he's done a lot to help me
to be there for me
you were always right about him, john.
right now, i don't want to leave things unsaid with anyone, including him

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guess you better not then

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guess i better not.

john, you've been locked up since you died. you've never talked about how you felt. but you don't talk about how anything makes you feel, since then. i haven't wanted to push you on it, i wanted to give you time. maybe you still need time.

but like i said. i don't want to leave anything unsaid.

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just be good to him

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i want to be good to you

i love you. i want to do right by you

and it's really fucking hard when i don't know how you're feeling.

please will you talk to someone
someone who knows what they're talking about, i mean