[ John's on the couch there in the private room he has for himself at The Gray Room. A thing he'd asked of Caliban when he just needed to be alone. A safe place for him to be where he wouldn't hurt himself with the strange company of others on the streets. ]
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being like that
even if i accept that's how i can be
i still feel bad after
maybe if i had something to keep me grounded
keep me from spiraling too much
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i thought maybe if i could feel what caliban feels for me
so i can know it's real
and not listen to the shit some part of me is saying
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there's risks, though.
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turning into a demon?
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i had an empathy link with nick
we could feel each other's feelings
now there's a void where he should be
would you want to risk feeling that, if caliban were taken
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just what he feels for me
when i need to
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talk to him. if he's open to it, i could do it for you
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caliban might be able to do it himself
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it was just a thought
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also yes, of course i want to help you.
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you're a nerd like that
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what for?
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so you can feel what i feel
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and any other time you like
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Okay.
My head is a whole lot of shit, John. You only want to feel how I feel for you, right?
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Yeah. That was my thought.
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