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[guylining]

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[guylining]

guess i better not.

john, you've been locked up since you died. you've never talked about how you felt. but you don't talk about how anything makes you feel, since then. i haven't wanted to push you on it, i wanted to give you time. maybe you still need time.

but like i said. i don't want to leave anything unsaid.

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just be good to him

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i want to be good to you

i love you. i want to do right by you

and it's really fucking hard when i don't know how you're feeling.

please will you talk to someone
someone who knows what they're talking about, i mean

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no
stop being dramatic
it's not cute

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i'm not trying to be cute i told you

i'm worried about you

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and i told you
you don't need to be
so stop
all i asked was a question

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do you want me to tell you when things get serious with people?

[fireshow]

no
i just live with him and have eyes
so i asked
that's all

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okay

listen. if you ever want to know anything, ask and i'll tell you. nothing's secret, not from you

i'm sorry i didn't think to tell you this.

[fireshow]

you don't need to apologize
like i said
it was just a question
i don't care

[guylining]

okay so then why come to me about it, why ask at all if you don't care?

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because i was curious

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why

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because it involves two people i know

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okay

fine, alright. have it your way

just look. please think about what i said
please.

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i'm not interested in talking to anyone
it's not for me

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you can't just never care about anything ever again

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don't be such a baby

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i am though

do you know this is the first time you haven't just denied what happened to you? with me, anyway

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i don't know what you're talking about

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you do

and i know you care about me

i love you. that's why i'm saying this, i'm really worried about you. if therapy isn't your thing then cool, ok.
find something that works for you. something that's not just shoving it down and not letting yourself feel it

you can't do that forever, it'll come out in a way you can't control and only makes you feel worse.
don't you remember what the fiery side said, when you were separated? you're doing the same thing all over again, denying a part of yourself.

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too bad you didn't get to fuck him, huh?

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john i'm serious

[fireshow]

maybe i’m just this way
ever think about that?

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i care about you