Inbox the Second

[guylining]

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Inbox the First

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[fireshow]

i'm not you nate
i don't need a coven or circle of people in my life or around me
you and caliban are more than i've ever had even before coming here

[guylining]

listen

you went through a lot of shit before you came here
people didn't treat mutants right
you were in danger, you had to fight to protect your own

that's not how it was for me back home. but it's kind of how it was for caleb
he would understand better than anyone what it's like to have a very small circle

you've got more in common than you think

and being used to a small circle doesn't mean it always has to be that way

[fireshow]

i can't handle that right now
alec's gone again
shit happened

[ he died.. still not talking about that ]

despite what my handsome good looks might show
i'm barely keeping it together on a good day

[guylining]

okay
that's cool, and i get it
you have to handle what your handling in your own way

people will still be there when things get better

[fireshow]

like i said
you and caliban are more than i've ever had
try not to worry about how many friends i do or don't have
it's really dorky of you
but i still love you

[guylining]

i love you too

john, you know if you want to talk about that other stuff, i'm here.

[fireshow]

talk about what?
that i failed quota?

[guylining]

wait you what???

[fireshow]

guess there's a first time for everything

[guylining]

literally how is that possible you live with caliban

[fireshow]

last month was pretty shitty
and it's not like he does me if i'm not in the mood

[guylining]

no i know but

[ Nate tends to just look at Caliban and get in the mood. And when things are shitty sex gets him out of his head, it helps.

But not everyone's like that. ]

okay

did they take you to slut

[fireshow]

not yet
how many you think i can burn when they try?

[guylining]

not enough

does caliban know

[fireshow]

my record is two so far
yeah
i messaged him about it

[guylining]

listen john

even watching others can get you through quota's bare minimum

like you could watch me and him

[fireshow]

i've been here almost two years
i know how it works
i just haven't wanted to

[guylining]

you're doing the thing again

burning everything up because you can

even when it hurts you

[fireshow]

i'm sorry
i guess between
you dying
caliban dying
marcos dying
being chased by sentinels
alec leaving again
i haven't felt in the mood to fuck
i didn't know any of that was supposed to turn me on

[guylining]

don't

i'm sorry

i just hate the thought of them putting needles in you and forcing you it makes me want to ruin them

[fireshow]

i'll be fine
always am

[guylining]

you really think adding another rung to that ladder of trauma adds up to fine?

[fireshow]

yes ❤️🔥

[guylining]

you're the worst

i'll go with you if you like

[fireshow]

i was gonna ditch
more exiting that way