I suppose I'm just aware that it's going to be different living in a house with someone who also loves John. My last contact partner was...more selfish and more for me.
I don't know- it's one of those things again. It's hard to know till it happens. I think it's easier for mortals to find each other, at the very least. And a demon hunter vs a literal demon might be a hard comparison to win.
a demon hunter who's in love with magnus bane, remember.
listen i think two things
firstly, that change isn't always a bad thing, and alec is a good person whose back i'd have any day
secondly, that. in spite of the first thing, you deserve to be happy and comfortable just as much as john. and this shouldn't just be about making him happy. he loves you, and he'll care about how you feel. you should talk to him. be honest with him.
A man who is no longer in the city, and his other love is in my home.
It's hard to be honest when it's nothing more solid than "this will change things". It's not like I don't want Alec to live with us- nor do I think it's not a good idea when I can protect him as best I can under my room.
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Ah.
I am fine- though John asked me to give my second contract spot to Alec.
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well i'm not particularly surprised
you don't want to?
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John loves him. And denying him a chance to have him close would be cruel.
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what do you want, cal?
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And it's not like I have any other people wishing to fill that second spot.
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friendly?
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He was more John's lover than mine.
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so then how do you feel about the prospect of him moving in
not in the context of what john wants. just, in the context of what you want. personally.
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Which is rare.
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Which- well, I'm not against.
I think the bottom line is that it changes things.
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Only that it does.
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I suppose I'm just aware that it's going to be different living in a house with someone who also loves John. My last contact partner was...more selfish and more for me.
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listen i think two things
firstly, that change isn't always a bad thing, and alec is a good person whose back i'd have any day
secondly, that. in spite of the first thing, you deserve to be happy and comfortable just as much as john. and this shouldn't just be about making him happy. he loves you, and he'll care about how you feel. you should talk to him. be honest with him.
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It's hard to be honest when it's nothing more solid than "this will change things". It's not like I don't want Alec to live with us- nor do I think it's not a good idea when I can protect him as best I can under my room.
It's just...different in a way I didn't expect.
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won't change that john loves you
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At least, I think I do. I suppose I'm just not use to...different in this sense.
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and i know he hurt you, when alec was gone and when i was gone
he loves you as much as either of us. more, maybe. this isn't him choosing alec instead of you