I know it can't do that but I think he needs to feel there's some kind of control outside of what they do. This place can be tempting. I know that personally.
I'm hoping to direct him to you, if you don't mind. I just wanted to touch base if you were okay with me doing that. I know some of what he went through but I won't assume he told me everything.
I just know what it's like looking for some semblance of control, and I know that magic has helped me with those feelings. Maybe it can't help but maybe there is something.
they're never bad, i just don't want to take advantage of you. you're very good to me, and i know you. you'd be good even if it hurt you, i don't want that.
That means a lot to me. I've gotten to this place where most things feel settled, except for their games. Which I guess maybe should worry me as well but it doesn't.
i mean, i think we should fight the system. it's a bad system
but alex, he's talking about how he can't leave until he finds out what happened to michael or bass or the others who've disappeared it's about more than fighting for freedom for him
he's convinced that people who're gone aren't really gone. he asked me about leaving and coming back and idk, i guess he just thinks my perception is wrong or something
[ Kyle shouldn't be surprised. Hell, he's not. That doesn't make it worry him less. ]
Well fuck. I know we don't see eye to eye on that but I guess it's more he's just stopped talking to about it.
[ To Kyle. He'd stopped talking to Kyle about it. ]
I think the fact that he and I have been here for so long without ever going home and coming back hasn't helped him come to grips with it.
Thank you for letting me know. I'm not sure if I can help, or how, but I'm going to try. I worry about what he'll eventually do. Especially for Bass. From what Alex has told me, he's one of those that didn't have a life to go back to and I think that weighs on him a lot.
i know and i know how hard it is to let go of someone you love
the reality is one day he'll get out of here and none of this will matter anymore, but in the meantime he's gonna drive himself crazy over it
or he might already have, i think he suspects everyone who's left is held somewhere and hasn't really gone home. there's no evidence for it but when did that ever stop a good conspiracy theory?
idk if there's anything to be done about it, but. well if anyone could help him it's probably you
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This place can be tempting. I know that personally.
I'm hoping to direct him to you, if you don't mind. I just wanted to touch base if you were okay with me doing that. I know some of what he went through but I won't assume he told me everything.
I just know what it's like looking for some semblance of control, and I know that magic has helped me with those feelings. Maybe it can't help but maybe there is something.
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tbh you can give my name to anyone kyle, i trust you. i don't think you'd be sending anyone shady my way
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Anything to help you build back to whatever business you want here.
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charles, is that his name?
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You know I'm here if there's anything I can do to help with that building up.
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but i appreciate it, kyle. you have to stop offering, you have a lot of your own stuff to deal with.
which reminds me, i owe you some healing potions. i got delayed, like all of us did, but. i have a batch brewing now.
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I do, but it also mostly runs like a well oiled machine.
I've learned to delegate at least.
I'm thankful for them whenever you get them done. Thank you.
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is someone helping you with that?
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Both of the professionals I've seen while I'm here have left.
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Which I guess maybe should worry me as well but it doesn't.
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you only have to deal with what's here. when you get out of here, you won't remember any of it, so you won't care
you have this life now, you might as well feel as good about it as you can
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I've encouraged others to do just that, and I should try and do the same.
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i know it's not easy, this place doesn't make it easy
i just mean, if you obsess over what happens when you leave, there's just no good in it. i'm a bit worried about your alex, from that point of view
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Not sure we'll ever see eye to eye on it either.
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but alex, he's talking about how he can't leave until he finds out what happened to michael or bass or the others who've disappeared
it's about more than fighting for freedom for him
he's convinced that people who're gone aren't really gone. he asked me about leaving and coming back and idk, i guess he just thinks my perception is wrong or something
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Well fuck. I know we don't see eye to eye on that but I guess it's more he's just stopped talking to about it.
[ To Kyle. He'd stopped talking to Kyle about it. ]
I think the fact that he and I have been here for so long without ever going home and coming back hasn't helped him come to grips with it.
Thank you for letting me know. I'm not sure if I can help, or how, but I'm going to try. I worry about what he'll eventually do. Especially for Bass.
From what Alex has told me, he's one of those that didn't have a life to go back to and I think that weighs on him a lot.
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and i know how hard it is to let go of someone you love
the reality is one day he'll get out of here and none of this will matter anymore, but in the meantime he's gonna drive himself crazy over it
or he might already have, i think he suspects everyone who's left is held somewhere and hasn't really gone home. there's no evidence for it but when did that ever stop a good conspiracy theory?
idk if there's anything to be done about it, but. well if anyone could help him it's probably you