( i don't like not being the favorite would be the bit he'd say here if he didn't give a shit where this ended at, along with there's too many fucking dogs but one of those opens up the whole i don't do favorites conversation he's pretty sure would follow and the other is just. dog hair. )
maybe like .5% if you can make another creepy clown door we can put it right into my room for clandestine visits whenever the urge comes up
so it'll basically be the same as me sleeping in the next room over
look i know you and ragnor have a whole thing you went to him when you needed help after the coma and not to me i get it. i wish you weren't leaving but i get it
but it's fine. clearing this up is slightly more important than saving his nose from suffering, so. oliver isn't particularly quick about heading out, because he has to. fix his hair and shit.
but he does let himself right into the theatre, using nate's nice clowns. makes his way over to nate and wraps his arms around his neck. clinging always seems to make shit less bad. )
So like, I'm going to admit to something that really makes me look like an asshole.
[ Potions often smell bad, but this one is especially pungent. It's also filled the room with smoke that's both bright yellow and pale pink, depending on how it catches the light, and it's...
Honestly not the most important thing on Nate's mind anymore. He's stirring it, but he's lost count, and he's probably going to have to start from scratch.
He misses another turn when Oli appears, but given that he stopped caring about it a while back, it really doesn't matter. He hooks a hand up around Oli's arm and leans his head back against his temple. ]
( not like he was actually planning on moving all of his stuff out anyway. he already called dibs on some of nate's space and now nate will have to live with it. nate leans back, and oliver widens his stance a little so he can support him a bit better and drops his arms down so they're wrapped around nate's shoulders instead.
he can deal with the grossness of the potion. it's not like he doesn't lounge around the theatre while everyone's doing weird shit anyway. )
I like you. And I know you like me, but I also know you're in love with Caleb, which I mean. Totally legit, Caleb's amazing and hot and fun. And you're both really good to me, I don't have any complaints. There's nothing that made me go "I need to find someone else" or anything. But like when I'm in a contract, when I live with someone and depend on them for basically everything, I want to be their favorite.
[ Nate sighs. He runs his fingers over Oli's arm, and tips his head down to kiss it. ]
That doesn't make you an asshole. It's..
I can't do that, I don't want to pick favourites. I want everyone I love together, I'd contract you all if I could. I don't want you to go, I'll miss you.
[ He liked their house with Oli in it. Nate hates to lose people, and this feels like that, even if it isn't entirely.
He nearly leaves it there, but then he turns his head a bit. He can see one or two wisps of Oli's curls. ]
I would've thought, though, that Nick was your favourite, since you're marrying him. And I'm right, you know, next door to him. It's not like you're contracting Kyle.
( there it is. the i don't do favorites bit he was expecting. not that oliver thinks nate's lying or bullshitting or bullshitting himself or whatever, nate doesn't come off as the sort who plays favorites.
before nick, oliver wouldn't have believed people just don't. )
I love Nick a lot, and I wanted something that was mine with him. Like you and Nick have your empathy thing. Nick and Kyle have a permanent contract. ( and maybe nick's his favorite here but he wouldn't call nick his favorite of all time. probably. depends on the context. ) Those're your as forever as we can give here. Right?
( oliver's selfish and possessive; jealousy is an emotion he's very familiar with. not one he would have stuck with being the reasoning before, because he'd--been following nick's cues leading up to asking, but it's not one he'd be beyond recognizing now. )
I want forevers. I want Nick as long as I can keep him, I want-- ( fingers loosening around nate, so he can spread them wide before he's pressing them back against nate's chest. ) I want forevers with everyone I love, I want something that's just mine. But just because I want them doesn't mean I need to cling onto them as tightly as I can and shove myself into their space all the time, right? I love Nick, I don't need to live as close to him as possible, especially when he's a cheater who can portal now and drops onto my bed to cuddle whenever he feels like it.
( hands lower a little, fingers of one hand wrapping around the wrist of the other as oliver leans in against nate's back. noses in against his ear. )
I like that you don't play favorites. I like that you want to keep everyone you love together, and I like you and Caleb. But I also like how it feels to be someone's favorite.
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it's okay though. it's not like we said it'd last.
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maybe like .5%
if you can make another creepy clown door we can put it right into my room
for clandestine visits whenever the urge comes up
so it'll basically be the same as me sleeping in the next room over
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look i know you and ragnor have a whole thing
you went to him when you needed help after the coma and not to me
i get it.
i wish you weren't leaving but i get it
i'll miss you
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he conveniently showed up when i was looking for basically anyone
not that i don't like him but like if you were right outside my door i would have gone with you
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Then he deletes it. That isn't gonna help anything. ]
it's ok
are you going today, or?
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can you come home for a sec?
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hold on
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i'm sorry in advance
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but it's fine. clearing this up is slightly more important than saving his nose from suffering, so. oliver isn't particularly quick about heading out, because he has to. fix his hair and shit.
but he does let himself right into the theatre, using nate's nice clowns. makes his way over to nate and wraps his arms around his neck. clinging always seems to make shit less bad. )
So like, I'm going to admit to something that really makes me look like an asshole.
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Honestly not the most important thing on Nate's mind anymore. He's stirring it, but he's lost count, and he's probably going to have to start from scratch.
He misses another turn when Oli appears, but given that he stopped caring about it a while back, it really doesn't matter. He hooks a hand up around Oli's arm and leans his head back against his temple. ]
Is it that you moved already?
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( not like he was actually planning on moving all of his stuff out anyway. he already called dibs on some of nate's space and now nate will have to live with it. nate leans back, and oliver widens his stance a little so he can support him a bit better and drops his arms down so they're wrapped around nate's shoulders instead.
he can deal with the grossness of the potion. it's not like he doesn't lounge around the theatre while everyone's doing weird shit anyway. )
I like you. And I know you like me, but I also know you're in love with Caleb, which I mean. Totally legit, Caleb's amazing and hot and fun. And you're both really good to me, I don't have any complaints. There's nothing that made me go "I need to find someone else" or anything. But like when I'm in a contract, when I live with someone and depend on them for basically everything, I want to be their favorite.
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That doesn't make you an asshole. It's..
I can't do that, I don't want to pick favourites. I want everyone I love together, I'd contract you all if I could. I don't want you to go, I'll miss you.
[ He liked their house with Oli in it. Nate hates to lose people, and this feels like that, even if it isn't entirely.
He nearly leaves it there, but then he turns his head a bit. He can see one or two wisps of Oli's curls. ]
I would've thought, though, that Nick was your favourite, since you're marrying him. And I'm right, you know, next door to him. It's not like you're contracting Kyle.
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before nick, oliver wouldn't have believed people just don't. )
I love Nick a lot, and I wanted something that was mine with him. Like you and Nick have your empathy thing. Nick and Kyle have a permanent contract. ( and maybe nick's his favorite here but he wouldn't call nick his favorite of all time. probably. depends on the context. ) Those're your as forever as we can give here. Right?
( oliver's selfish and possessive; jealousy is an emotion he's very familiar with. not one he would have stuck with being the reasoning before, because he'd--been following nick's cues leading up to asking, but it's not one he'd be beyond recognizing now. )
I want forevers. I want Nick as long as I can keep him, I want-- ( fingers loosening around nate, so he can spread them wide before he's pressing them back against nate's chest. ) I want forevers with everyone I love, I want something that's just mine. But just because I want them doesn't mean I need to cling onto them as tightly as I can and shove myself into their space all the time, right? I love Nick, I don't need to live as close to him as possible, especially when he's a cheater who can portal now and drops onto my bed to cuddle whenever he feels like it.
( hands lower a little, fingers of one hand wrapping around the wrist of the other as oliver leans in against nate's back. noses in against his ear. )
I like that you don't play favorites. I like that you want to keep everyone you love together, and I like you and Caleb. But I also like how it feels to be someone's favorite.