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fuck off

i miss him
but he could come here, he was here before. if it were just about him i could just chill tf out and hope he gets brought back too

nah
i have to go back and save them. my fuckery is what started all the trouble, i have to find a way to fix it. being here, it's like
i can pretend that's not happening
not forever but for a while
it's been like a holiday almost

[fireshow]

guess you should find a way back then

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yeah

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Then, at length. ]

what if there isn't one

[fireshow]

i mean
you left before so
leaving here isn't impossible

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yeah but i didn't find a way, they kicked me out. and i'd to pay the memory tax on the way

i want to remember
i want to still be able to reach you and hope and caliban and not lose any of you again
i want to be able to send people home if they want, or give them a better option. let them stay with the people they've found
i want to make sure you don't get sent back to sentinels and caliban doesn't go to the void and i want to fucking find caleb and nick and the other nick again

i don't want to just fuck off back home and not even remember loving you, john.

[fireshow]

well
we don't get everything we want in life
do we?

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no

and if i don't find a way, then it ends the same way as last time, anyway

is this chat everything you hoped it'd be?

[fireshow]

always is

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you know what i fucking miss lately

drugs

[fireshow]

don't get dramatic and impulsive
that's my thing

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i'm serious

my roommate's all happy and free with them like i used to be
cas is drowning all his sorrows in them, also like i used to

i fucking miss it

[fireshow]

so what's stopping you then?

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ongoing sobriety
not sure it suits me

[fireshow]

maybe you should stick to it
lest you make questionable decisions

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yeah, i know.

but i still fucking miss it.

you ever miss home?

[fireshow]

no?
i'm not hunted here by fucking big machines
made by humans
because i'm "not normal"

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what about the people

[fireshow]

i didn't have people

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didn't you leave the x-men for another group? 90% sure you told me that

[fireshow]

also pretty sure
i mentioned that things went to shit with all that

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so all these new guys
erik
charles
you have opinions?

also ororo
not new, but. i've never asked about her.

[fireshow]

they're not from where i'm from

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none of them?

[fireshow]

nope
the first two might be from my past
but who's to say

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well have you thoughts, anyway?