they're the only thing of him that's still living here they feel like him i have to keep them alive and i don't need help. magic isn't a pot with a bottom for me, it's everywhere. in me, in the world around me, in the spaces between worlds, in everything. i can draw it, it's like breathing and magic is air i come from it and it comes from me i don't need help but i don't want it either because this is the only thing i can do to keep him still here, even a little bit, and i need that
i don't want to just hear his music or catch the scent of him on his clothes it's not enough i mean, nothing's enough. but keeping the plants alive it's better.
and you think he won't? give it to him, see what he does.
cause thing is, he's looking for things to control and affect in a sense of needing to do something no different than you are but i don't think he actually wants anything more than the plants and you to be alright
a month after our talk about that, i walked into his office and confronted him about the attack and he apologized and explained some of why it happened. i accepted his apology
at the bacchanal we roleplayed like we were meeting for the first time, got some of the weird out of the way
and then the city made it weird by forcing us to do some heavy D/s we didn't really negotiate, but we worked through it
we've been keeping communication and i care about him he's my friend plus he told me he has a perfect memory of the attack, which i think makes him far more deferential to me than he should be, but it helped build trust
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they feel like him
i have to keep them alive
and i don't need help. magic isn't a pot with a bottom for me, it's everywhere. in me, in the world around me, in the spaces between worlds, in everything. i can draw it, it's like breathing and magic is air
i come from it and it comes from me
i don't need help
but i don't want it either
because this is the only thing i can do to keep him still here, even a little bit, and i need that
i don't want to just hear his music or catch the scent of him on his clothes
it's not enough
i mean, nothing's enough. but keeping the plants alive
it's better.
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you said oli told you you couldn't take them on. i love him, don't get me wrong, but you could also just do it
is he going to stop you?
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i made a potion to transfer the link from nick to me
it'll let them draw from me through the empathy link
he needs to use the potion on them or they'll die
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give it to him, see what he does.
cause thing is, he's looking for things to control and affect in a sense of needing to do something no different than you are
but i don't think he actually wants anything more than the plants and you to be alright
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i hope he uses it. i don't want to fight about it though
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then hope that he does, but if he doesn’t
no, i don’t think this is the hill to die on. you’ve at least some of the plants, that’s something
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it's something
kyle will use what i gave him too
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not to change the subject but
do you know
is anyone else still living in that house with him?
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the other guy is still there
he has another contract too
so he has people but he's struggling, i know he is. i'm going over there tonight
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alright. i know he'll appreciate it.
give him a kiss for me
and take care of each other if not yourselves
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it wasn't so long ago you were telling me you didn't trust him and now you're worried about him
and kissing him apparently
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a month after our talk about that, i walked into his office and confronted him about the attack and he apologized and explained some of why it happened. i accepted his apology
at the bacchanal we roleplayed like we were meeting for the first time, got some of the weird out of the way
and then the city made it weird by forcing us to do some heavy D/s we didn't really negotiate, but we worked through it
we've been keeping communication and i care about him
he's my friend
plus he told me he has a perfect memory of the attack, which i think makes him far more deferential to me than he should be, but it helped build trust
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he's one of the people i'd do heavy d/s with
i mean if such a thing were acceptable between two dominants obviously
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our history makes that a little harder, but we’re working up to more, i think. i won’t say i haven’t considered how it might go if we switched
not that i’ve ever put hand to him myself, of course