right now i need to be there for those i care about. that is one thing that helps me and right now i just want to be with those i have feelings for, to be with them in case it happens again.
so we find our comfort and love and joy where we can. i will push you nate, and make it hurt. i will us all i have and make you keep going until you call for a stop or you pass out and are getting nothing from it.
and i will make sure you're safe and taken care of after.
i've shared things like this before, nate. just not often but i trust you with this and i feel safer sharing it with you.
I'll see you then, unless you say things have changed.
Good. You are one of the few people I would trust like this, Nate. Maybe the only one. I won't hold back, and I won't stop unless you pass out. I should ask for a safe word. Do you want one?
[ It's reckless but they both kind of need reckless now. Passing out though Nate can't have the benefits of it all. That is a cut off for Kyle. ]
[ Because that would definitely end things right then and there. ]
Nate, I will stay with you no matter what. I won't hold back. I won't ease up until you're done, one way or another, but I will not desert. Not if you pass out. Not after.
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let me help you get out of your head and help me just hold on to who and what i still have.
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how much are you willing to hurt me?
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whatever you need, nate.
i'm learning how much it can help.
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we cope in different ways. i don't want you to do something FOR me.
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that is one thing that helps me and right now i just want to be with those i have feelings for, to be with them in case it happens again.
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okay
if you're sure
it always happens.
that's the thing. nick is the latest, but it happens to everyone eventually
we don't know how much time we have
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i will push you nate, and make it hurt. i will us all i have and make you keep going until you call for a stop or you pass out and are getting nothing from it.
and i will make sure you're safe and taken care of after.
i've shared things like this before, nate. just not often but i trust you with this and i feel safer sharing it with you.
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i'd like that.
we can do it here
i don't normally care about being seen but tbh jail is the last thing i need rn so i'm keeping my doors closed
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I think its good too for me to make time for those I still have.
I wouldn't want you jailed, Nate. Not over me.
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i'll take a potion before you get here
you won't kill me no matter what you do, so don't hold back, please
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Good. You are one of the few people I would trust like this, Nate. Maybe the only one.
I won't hold back, and I won't stop unless you pass out.
I should ask for a safe word. Do you want one?
[ It's reckless but they both kind of need reckless now. Passing out though Nate can't have the benefits of it all. That is a cut off for Kyle. ]
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my safeword's nick
[ Nothing would stop them in their tracks like that, not right now. ]
if i pass out, stay with me. i'll thank you when i wake up
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[ Because that would definitely end things right then and there. ]
Nate, I will stay with you no matter what. I won't hold back. I won't ease up until you're done, one way or another, but I will not desert. Not if you pass out. Not after.
Promise.
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and i doubt i'll come close to using it
i trust you, kyle. so long as you're up for this, so am i.
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