i do understand, you know why you needed to go. why you'd go again the next time someone gets a new idea. i get it you don't have to try and justify it
pro: we got more info con: we didn't actually achieve anything pro: the info we got makes me 99.9999% sure that we're in hell con: the fact that i have to classify the above as a pro
idk though like there definitely are soils getting tortured in hell. i freed some idk where they went after. and like maybe if there's various hells there's also various heavens idk what the criteria is
maybe i should ask thorn now that he'd actually know. if the demons do know, like maybe they don't
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
[ Or maybe he is? Just because he hadn't thought so doesn't mean he isn't. ]
at least i'm not like deliberately caught up in
i'll talk to him
peter, right?
no subject
on the recap post thing
if u could leave out the part where it's me that's a fucked up murderer that would obv be great tho lol
no subject
but yeah, i can tell john about william without telling him about william
no subject
i do understand, you know
why you needed to go. why you'd go again the next time someone gets a new idea. i get it
you don't have to try and justify it
no subject
as in the exact thing you were worried about it putting you through
no subject
no subject
pro: we got more info
con: we didn't actually achieve anything
pro: the info we got makes me 99.9999% sure that we're in hell
con: the fact that i have to classify the above as a pro
no subject
but nate, as long as you think these things are worth the cost i'm always going to be behind you
no subject
but if this is hell
then all my experience tells me we actually can't, unless someone from outside helps
which what happened with our portals would support
so maybe it isn't worth it
i don't know anymore
i don't really have hope anymore
i just can't bring myself to sit back and say ok that's it i'm not trying anymore
no subject
it'll be okay if you need a break from it too. that's not sitting back and giving up. it's just taking a break.
no subject
i'm sorry i've been caught up in it
no subject
i don't want you to be sorry, for any of it
no subject
we're okay, aren't we?
no subject
yeah, we are
i'm just glad you're back.
no subject
john
irving, i mean
he's fiercely christian, this is all really hard for him
no subject
what does he think about what happened out there?
no subject
except he always thought it, i used to try and talk him out of it
no subject
i don't think we're all being punished for how we lived our lives before here or anything like that
no subject
that's what he thinks though
idk though like
there definitely are soils getting tortured in hell. i freed some
idk where they went after. and like maybe if there's various hells there's also various heavens
idk what the criteria is
maybe i should ask thorn now that he'd actually know. if the demons do know, like maybe they don't